Monthly Archives: September 2011

Becoming

I had a check-in with my doctor yesterday so she could get a sense of where I’m at with regards to HRT and follow-on care after my chest pain scare a couple of months ago. The cardiology discussion was interesting timing, … Continue reading

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Shoe Shopping

I attempted to go shoe shopping yesterday at Nordstrom Rack. I didn’t find any shoes there and frankly, it was a bit demoralizing. I’m stuck with size 12-12 1/2 men’s feet, which works out to 14-14 1/2 women’s, though I can … Continue reading

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HRT – Week 17 Check-in

Last week’s dose: 3mg/day estradiol. Physical: Holding steady. Breast area seems a bit larger but measurements don’t bear this out. I’m likely just getting fat! I had my hair trimmed and highlights touched up, which has nothing to do with … Continue reading

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Confounding Closet Consternation!

What shirt should I wear today? Well, who’s getting dressed? Oh christ, I don’t need this fucking question today. Go away. No. Deal with me at your peril. Fuck off. Sorry, you’re stuck with me for the time being. (Sigh) OK, … Continue reading

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Chimera

This transition I’m on is still confusing as hell at times. What’s confusing is that I’m not always clear who or what I am. It’s hard to shake the feeling that I’m some sort of chimera right now. Am I a … Continue reading

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HRT – Week 16 Check-in

Last week’s dose: 3mg/day estradiol. Physical: No significant changes from last week, except for cessation of the nipple sensations previously reported. I have begun to notice some fat redistribution, but that could be because I’ve been much more sedentary the … Continue reading

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Why I Blog

To get stuff out of my head. If you’re trans like me, there can be a lot to figure out in life and I’ve always found it helpful and sometimes cathartic to write stuff down. It can be a place to park thoughts and … Continue reading

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HRT – Week 15 Check-in

Last week’s dose: 3mg/day estradiol. Physical: My skin softness is more noticeable to me now. This past week I had a few occasional sensations of nipple “burning”, which was new. My libido seems to have lowered and it takes a … Continue reading

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Breathing

The counselor I see for general life stuff often asks me if I’m breathing. You see, I have this tendency to stop breathing or breathe shallowly when I’m feeling stressed out. It’s a vicious cycle. Stop breathing due to stress … Continue reading

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Stuck

Wednesday my marriage counselor suggested my wife and I separate so that we could get some space to think about what’s next in life for both of us. Last night, during our first date night in several weeks, my wife … Continue reading

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