Monthly Archives: October 2011

Sill Paused, But Breathing

The past 10 days have been hard. • My mom had quadruple heart bypass surgery• I moved, with my wife and kids, to a new place• Work has been random and directionless after I was re-organized into a new team• … Continue reading

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Pausing HRT for Reflection

I stopped taking hormones on October 6th. Unlike the short-term pause of HRT I took a few months back, this is a self-directed pause for non-medical reasons. The simplest explanation is that I am not prepared to deal with the relationship changes that it … Continue reading

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HRT – Week 19 Check-in and Pause

Last week’s dose: I took my last dose of Estradiol on the 6th, 4mg and have not had any since. I’ll detail why in a separate post, but it’s not related to any sort of physical issue or reaction. Physical: I noticed … Continue reading

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"…and then we stop your heart…"

It’s hard to know where to start right now, so I’ll start with the most emotionally resonant moment and bend out from there. I’m sitting in a media room with my mom, her long-term partner and her cardiothoracic surgeon in the James … Continue reading

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Searching for Sunshine

This past week has been very rough. How rough? My mom was diagnosed with coronary heart disease and needs a triple bypass in the next week or so My marriage appears headed towards dissolution since it looks like I’m finally … Continue reading

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HRT – Week 18 Check-in

Last week’s dose: 3mg/day estradiol. Physical: No major changes. Appear to be in a slow, steady growth phase. Emotional: It’s been an extraordinarily stressful week for me and I’ve been a bit of a wreck. I don’t know how much … Continue reading

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Unconventional Opinion

Updated October 5, 2011 – Clarified the next-to-last paragraph to match what I really meant to say. In my continuing quest to make sure I’m not about to make a huge, life-altering mistake, last week I sought a second opinion … Continue reading

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