Puberty the third time is rough. Granted, I only made it about six months into my second, but I’m finding the re-entry back into testosterone much rockier than my foray into estrogen.
I have a shorter temper. I feel angry a lot. My depression is back with a vengeance at times. I’m breaking out like the first time around in my teens and it sucks big-time. I’m not sleeping well. Sometimes things just feel hopeless and that I’ve destroyed my marriage and stuck myself in no-(wo)man’s land and am an idiot to have done so.
The flip side is that I feel more confident in myself. I’m worrying less about what people think of me. My libido is ramping back up but in a more manageable way than before. I’m kicking ass at work. I have moments where I think things will work out just fine, no matter what. I like more parts of my body now.
I bounce back and forth within the hour sometimes. Bleah.
It has to mellow out at some point, right?