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Dose: 4 mg/day estradiol
Weight: 180 lbs.
Physical: I was supposed to see my doctor today to talk about upping my dose, but I’ve had to re-schedule for 3 weeks out, so yesterday I upped my dose to 5mg/day. I had a few weird tinges lying in bed in my arms, which raises the clotting/stroke fears, so I’m monitoring myself closely today.
I finally bought a tailor’s tape and I measure out at a 38A. This makes me happy even though I wish I was further along. It’ll come. My breast buds also feel very large and breast cancer runs in my family, so that’s another thing that I’ll have checked when I get in to see the doctor.
Emotional: Stressed out. The twinges I felt last night could be mild panic attacks as I think about what comes ahead around transition and relationships with family and friends. My wife is also having elective, outpatient surgery this week, which will see me at home for a few days and work has been super-stressful lately.
Any one of those would be enough to stress a person out, so I’m trying to give myself some space to breathe. I had a massage for the first time in a year last weekend and that was really nice. I also seem to be catching more and more glimpses of myself in the mirror even if others don’t see me yet. 🙂