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Dose: 6 mg/day estradiol
Weight: 182 lbs.
Physical: Continued boob aches. I’m trying to keep reminding myself that this is a good sign, because it’s becoming bothersome!
My scale is also telling me that while my weight hasn’t changed that much, my body fat percentage has been slowly creeping up by a few percentage points.
I’m awaiting the results of my last blood test, and I’m really hoping that my levels are where they need to be.
Emotional: Sad, but resolute. The sadness comes from the reality of really feeling that my relationship with my wife being has been irrevocably changed. We’re both trying to find a new way of being together, and it’s uncomfortable.
On my side, it’s hard not to feel rejected when she doesn’t want to kiss me on the lips. Yet I understand why. I find some cold solace in the rejection that it means she sees me as female, but it’s small comfort when I’m looking for greater intimacy that I know will not return.