HRT Week 45 Review

[Looking for information about male to female hormone replacement therapy dosing and effects? Read my Brief Overview of Feminizing Hormones post.]

Week: 45

Dose: 6 mg/day estradiol

Weight: 182 lbs.

Physical: Continued boob aches. I’m trying to keep reminding myself that this is a good sign, because it’s becoming bothersome!

My scale is also telling me that while my weight hasn’t changed that much, my body fat percentage has been slowly creeping up by a few percentage points.

I’m awaiting the results of my last blood test, and I’m really hoping that my levels are where they need to be.

Emotional: Sad, but resolute. The sadness comes from the reality of really feeling that my relationship with my wife being has been irrevocably changed. We’re both trying to find a new way of being together, and it’s uncomfortable.

On my side, it’s hard not to feel rejected when she doesn’t want to kiss me on the lips. Yet I understand why. I find some cold solace in the rejection that it means she sees me as female, but it’s small comfort when I’m looking for greater intimacy that I know will not return.

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About cistotrans

A Seattle-area trans woman seeking a happy spot to stay at along the path of transition.
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2 Responses to HRT Week 45 Review

  1. my heart and thoughts go to you my dear .. i know exactly how you feel ..
    Hugs,

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