Transition experiences: Still being gendered persistently as male. I wonder if I’ll ever hit the male-fail that others speak of.
My wife considers me a woman, which is something, but it’s hard for both of us to untangle some of the emotions around that.
Old men stare at me in a disconcerting way.
Thinking lots about social transition and moving it up from mid-summer to spring. The daily routine of selecting work clothes that don’t out me is increasingly mentally exhausting.
I’ve been practicing my eye makeup and I’m convinced I’ll never figure out eyeliner.
Emotional: Messy. Anxious. Stressed. Work is a madhouse as we approach a deadline and home is palpably electric as we work through money issues.
Physical: Mildly tender breasts. Continually surprised now how some shirts really accentuate my breast growth, even male shirts. Finding things to wear that hide or de-emphasize my boobs is harder.
Feeling more winded after physical exertion.
Weight: 180 lbs.
Dose: 5 mg/day estradiol
[Looking for detailed information about male to female hormone replacement therapy dosing and effects? Read the Brief Overview of Feminizing Hormones post. You might also be interested in The Transwoman’s Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT) Tracking Chart.]