Monthly Archives: August 2015

Betrayal

Betrayal is the bitter poison that chokes your throat with ash, settling as a stone in your gut. Betrayal is every ‘I love you’ twisting a knife deeper and harder into your heart. Betrayal is hugs that camouflage disdain and … Continue reading

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HRT Week 81 Review

Transition experiences:┬áLast weekend saw me finish my week off that was also a bit of a dry run for transition, and overall, it went really, really well. I went out as myself, wearing a dress, for an early birthday dinner … Continue reading

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Why change back?

‘Why change back?’ A friend of mine asked me that Friday night after meeting me for the first time as me, and it threw me off. She had earlier deemed me as ‘looking great’ and given me the thumbs-up on … Continue reading

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HRT Week 80 Review

Transition experiences:┬áMy wife and kids are out of town on a vacation with her family and I’ve taken the opportunity to be myself. I’ve been grocery and clothes shopping, run errands, met up with a friend in town, and been … Continue reading

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Visible

To discover the darkling fear In the summer sun Lighting the dual eclipses Of the soul and the shadow-pushers Casts me back to the past Where I dwelt in my unlit hole Awaiting a ray of ease to shine upon … Continue reading

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Women Born Trans Women

Extracted with hot needles and cold steel Midwifed by beta hexagonal carbon Delivered from plain sight hiding to invisible visibility Our depleted placentas drip blood for all to see As we fill our lungs and cry With the pain of … Continue reading

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Maybe I could call you Heather?

Ever since I told my kids I was trans, they’ve both been resistant to the idea of my transition. Over the past few months, I’ve been trying to gently remind them every now and then that it’s coming. I’m usually … Continue reading

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