Monthly Archives: October 2015

HRT Week 90 Review

Transition experiences: Was ‘Young lady’-ed by a street solicitor seeking donations. A salon I stopped by to pick up a hair care product at first gendered me female and then shifted to, “Can you help him…” Both times were mid-week guy … Continue reading

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HRT Week 89 Review

Transition experiences:  I know I spent time as myself this weekend, but I honestly couldn’t tell you much about it, because I don’t remember what I was doing. I think that’s a win for normalization around being myself! Emotional: My … Continue reading

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Date certain

Friday, October 23, 2015, my wife will move out. This day has been coming ever since May of this year, when we (okay – me; when I told her we should get divorced,) realized that our marriage wouldn’t survive my … Continue reading

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I see

When I look in the mirror, I see a feminine middle-aged man. I see a person struggling to find happiness in a life that many would find enviable. I see someone afraid of death in a youth-focused culture. I see … Continue reading

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HRT Week 88 Review

Transition experiences: After not feeling comfortable using the bathroom at one store I was at, I drove a bit to use the ladies room at a grocery store without incident. I have been trying to time things when I use women’s … Continue reading

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Airhead

The pressure within Wants to push my brain out Dripping through my ears The pressure without Pulls it in

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Absurdity

Tonight I helped my wife take a load of things to her new apartment and the absurdity of the situation struck me. Before we married, I joked that I would divorce her if she became obese. Setting aside the fat … Continue reading

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HRT Week 87 Review

Transition experiences: At our anniversary dinner, the server first called us gals, then later called me sir. Emotional: The huge, happy news is that I have a new job! It is such a relief to have that sorted out. It feels like … Continue reading

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Bittersweet

Today is a Feelings day. Bad feelings: Tenth wedding anniversary Formal separation date Wife is singing lease for a new place Wrote a goodbye letter to a dying aunt My electrolysis tech has moved on and she was great Good … Continue reading

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