Week 139 – Deep Breaths

At least five times, breathe deeply in through the nose, letting the air fill your lungs from the bottom up, pause for a second once full, and then breathe out of your mouth. Do this deliberately, focusing all your attention on the breath coming in and the breath going out.

Do it in a rhythm you’re comfortable with. Try and make each inhale and each exhale the same length of time. Try and make each the same level of effort. Sometimes closing your eyes makes it easier to do all that.

Do this when you’re stressed. Do this when you’re relaxed. Do this when you’re sitting. Do this when you’re standing. Practice it so it becomes a habit, like brushing your teeth. You may find that once you move beyond paying attention to your breathing, your mind may wander.

Let it wander while you breathe.

Feel how your thoughts influence your breath. Notice the thoughts that make you take shallower, faster breathes. Notice the thoughts that make you take deeper, slower breaths. Compare them. Decide which thoughts to think. There is no rush to decide. There are many thoughts that could be thunk. You get to decide which ones you want to think. Think whatever you want.

When you’re breathing and not paying any attention to it because it’s like brushing your teeth, and you’re thinking the thoughts you want to think, quiet them for a moment. Move your mind towards just being and feeling the universe around you.

Feel the gravity pulling you down, see the light in your eyes, smell where you’re at, taste the air, sense the temperature. Become an antenna to these things. Take their signals in. Compare each in turn. Notice which make you take shallower, faster breathes. Notice which make you take deeper, slower breaths.

Do this in many different places. Seek out or build an environment that makes your breathing the easiest for you.

Once you’re there, practice. Practice being there. Practice breathing.

At least five times, breathe deeply in through the nose, letting the air fill your lungs from the bottom up, pause for a second once full, and then breathe out of your mouth.

©Heather Kilbourn

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About cistotrans

A Seattle-area trans woman seeking a happy spot to stay at along the path of transition.
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