Author Archives: cistotrans

About cistotrans

A Seattle-area trans woman seeking a happy spot to stay at along the path of transition.

Do Cis People See Gender Counselors?

Do Cis People See Gender Counselors? A trans man friend of mine is planning to come out to his extended family as part of a brief holiday visit over Christmas and he’s getting a case of the nerves. He lives … Continue reading

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Pussy Pondering Produces Penetrating Perception

She moves towards me, seeking my warmth and skin. My heat, a low simmer, moves closer to a full boil and it is almost too much. Almost. How has this beautiful woman come to be in my bed? It seems … Continue reading

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Broken

To be broken is to have been intact at some point, and I have no memory of being whole. I have memories of brief periods of time when I felt put together, but never have I not felt flawed. Maybe … Continue reading

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At the Corner of Impostor Syndrome and Internalized Transphobia

Once upon a time, there was a little girl who was raised as a boy. She was told she was a boy, told to act like a boy, and was teased and bullied when she acted like a girl. As … Continue reading

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The Decision

Titanic arcs of lightning erupt from the electrodes like they are trying to split space and time. Each crackling surge of power zipper zig-zags towards me, rending the air into a nitrogen and oxygen plasma soup. The bass roar here … Continue reading

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Looking on the Bright Side

Being trans can be rough and even dangerous but it’s not always doom and gloom. I’ve whined about my life here quite a bit and even I get tired of hearing myself whine. So, here are some good things about … Continue reading

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You Should Still Transition

Last year I wrote a post called You Should Transition. I believe that even with all the negative shit happening for trans people right now, you should still transition. Why? Because you’re suffering from gender dysphoria and it won’t get … Continue reading

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