Author Archives: cistotrans

About cistotrans

A Seattle-area trans woman seeking a happy spot to stay at along the path of transition.

Week 163 – Queer girl – part 2

(Continued from Queer Girl, Part 1) We cut through the bar to get to the restaurant. Holding the side door open for her, I could smell stale grease and smoke hanging in the air. The bar was roadhouse style. Dim … Continue reading

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Week 162 – The wedding

Saturday I attended a wedding in Portland for a friend I’ve known for almost twenty-five years. He and his bride, his parents, his kids, and some people who I’d only known online for over a decade but met for the … Continue reading

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Permission to transition

As I struggled with the decision to transition, I looked for someone, anyone, to give me permission to transition. I wanted my wife to give me permission. I wanted my doctor to give me permission. I wanted my counselor to … Continue reading

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A visit with my mom

My mom’s had a cough for a while and it’s been a while since I’ve seen her, so I took her out to lunch. As part of catching her up on my news, I told her I had updated my … Continue reading

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A letter to Heather Coldstream, age 14

Dear Heather, Yesterday you had a life-changing insight and I know it scared the shit out of you. You are not losing your mind. Yes, you are a transsexual. In 2017 we mostly call ourselves transgender or trans for short. … Continue reading

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Week 161 – Changing my HRT regimen

One of the things being trans has forced me to do is experiment with my body to become more comfortable with it. These experiments have ranged from the innocuous, like wearing different clothes and growing my hair out at different … Continue reading

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Born again

My amended birth certificate arrived in the mail on Saturday, and it made me the happiest I’ve felt on this gender journey so far. It’s really something to see “Sex FEMALE” on the certificate, and I’ve been peeking at it … Continue reading

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