Author Archives: cistotrans

About cistotrans

A Seattle-area trans woman seeking a happy spot to stay at along the path of transition.

Dear Dick,

Dear Dick, I’m sorry—I’m breaking up with you. The past few years have made it clear I just can’t be with you any more. It’s not fair to you for me to be thinking of Pussy when we’re together. I … Continue reading

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Five Years of HRT

It will be five years of continuous estrogen therapy* for me on the 6th of February 2019. Over that span of time my body has changed shape to follow ancient pathways set by evolution, my emotions have shifted like sandbars … Continue reading

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Living Beyond Transition

I debated transition for years, writhing in emotional pain trying to answer questions that lay beyond the transition event horizon: would I be happier if I transitioned? Would the pains of transition be less than the pains of denial by … Continue reading

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Hidden Chains

Oh! the futures I abandoned by staying chained to the past with a manacle of fear wrapped ‘round my throat. Thoughts of flight would bring a lump to my throat, tightening the collar I willfully wore. The links holding me … Continue reading

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Noisy Silences

The noisy silences of my life are filled with the rhythmic ticking of clocks tocking away on their cogs and the burbling waters of aquarium filters dancing above motor hums, and the more erratic and punctuated clinks of silverware upon … Continue reading

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The Transition Roller Coaster

My transition has been a roller coaster and I realized last night that the ride so far has been pretty darn close to the Gartner Hype Cycle, so I took a crack at visualizing it: Once I realized I was … Continue reading

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Do Cis People See Gender Counselors?

Do Cis People See Gender Counselors? A trans man friend of mine is planning to come out to his extended family as part of a brief holiday visit over Christmas and he’s getting a case of the nerves. He lives … Continue reading

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