Category Archives: coming out

My Friend, Loneliness

Loneliness is a new companion on my journey. When the still air suffocates me in silence I recall its foul cousin, isolation, the whispering sadist and apex of an invisible ménage à trios I felt when coupled but not whole, … Continue reading

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The Empress’s New Clothes

I am a mirrored mosaic made of shiny and jagged edges, all narrow slivers of myself glued to my body after shattering who I used to be. I no longer reflect toward myself but away. Multitudes see what they see … Continue reading

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The Hungers of the Flesh

My flesh, greedy for touch, threatens to swallow itself in hunger. I imagine myself an ouroboros, ring-like and unbroken instead of the scattered drops of quicksilver I am, with only surface tension to hold my pieces together and being ever-fearful … Continue reading

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Blooming Anew

There is pain within the truth as it hurtles into me. It bears the hurt of ruthless honestly like a broadside blade smacking skin, stinging. It was witness to my labors and cannot lie. The water from the shower is … Continue reading

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Happiness, the now, and the opportunity cost of time

Content warning: suicide Opportunity cost The loss of other alternatives when one alternative is chosen. – Oxford Dictionaries Being trans put me into a state of suspended time for years. I did many things that pushed me out of the … Continue reading

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Just keep smiling

I have these days, a year and a half after transition, where I feel like a fraud. — ‘Do you have a towel I can borrow?’ ‘Of course; I already put one in the bag for you.’ ‘Thank you!’ My … Continue reading

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OMG! (Deadname)!

One great thing about my new girlfriend is meeting her friends and expanding my social circle. My girlfriend’s best friend (GBF) lives in the Columbia City area of Seattle and we went down Friday night so I could meet GBF … Continue reading

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