Category Archives: gender transition

Genital Confirmation Surgery (GCS), March 2019

I meet with my surgeon the afternoon before surgery. My appointment has been re-scheduled twice; once because traffic is preventing me from arriving for an earlier appointment and then later because the doctor is running late. This is the second … Continue reading

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Journeys

It rained last night, but now it is mostly clear, and the moon walks with me to the bus stop in the pre-dawn, dancing between still-dripping Douglas fir boughs to drop moonbeams between shadowy places. Stars add their twinklings to … Continue reading

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All the Feels

In the coming week, I’m having The Surgery and I have many intense feelings about it. Disbelief, fear, anticipation, relief, excitement, acceptance, and gratitude. Disbelief rides atop all. Am I really doing this? Is this really happening? Is this really … Continue reading

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Why I Switched Back to Oral Estrogen from Injection

[CW: graphic description of needle injections, statistical analysis] Almost two years to the day after I started injectable estrogen, I switched back to oral last week. One big win of injectable for me was the general aspect of my body … Continue reading

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Dear Dick,

Dear Dick, I’m sorry—I’m breaking up with you. The past few years have made it clear I just can’t be with you any more. It’s not fair to you for me to be thinking of Pussy when we’re together. I … Continue reading

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Living Beyond Transition

I debated transition for years, writhing in emotional pain trying to answer questions that lay beyond the transition event horizon: would I be happier if I transitioned? Would the pains of transition be less than the pains of denial by … Continue reading

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Hidden Chains

Oh! the futures I abandoned by staying chained to the past with a manacle of fear wrapped ‘round my throat. Thoughts of flight would bring a lump to my throat, tightening the collar I willfully wore. The links holding me … Continue reading

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