Category Archives: observations

Week 169 – Chop wood, carry water

‘Before enlightenment; chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment; chop wood, carry water.‘ – Zen proverb The companions of the depression afflicting me the past few months has been household clutter and cleaning tasks I’ve put off because I could. Paperwork … Continue reading

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Week 168 – Unexpected donations

Spring is my favorite season. The days here in Seattle become noticeably longer, plants burst from buds into infinite shades of green, and the weather can change from hail to sunshine to rain in ten minutes. It also heralds a … Continue reading

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Week 166 – Misgendered to the end

The last person my mom ever misgendered me to was the hospital security guard who came to notarize a durable power of medical attorney listing me as the responsible party. As usual, her misgendering was unintentional. I didn’t correct her … Continue reading

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Permission to transition

As I struggled with the decision to transition, I looked for someone, anyone, to give me permission to transition. I wanted my wife to give me permission. I wanted my doctor to give me permission. I wanted my counselor to … Continue reading

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Quiet seas or smaller storms?

Being trans is boring. It’s 4:30 in the afternoon and raining here. I hear the tick of the clock on the wall, the trickle of water in the downspout outside the window, and the rain pattering on the roof. The … Continue reading

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Week 160 – A one-act scene at the urgent care clinic

EXT. OF URGENT CARE CLINIC ENTRANCE IN THE PACIFIC NORTHWEST Towering Douglas Firs footed with salal contrast with the landscaped and manicured surrounds of a new-ish medical facility. The parking lot is empty. A beat-up station wagon drives up and … Continue reading

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Week 159 – Online dating

Rows of faces stare at me from the screen. Most are smiling, except for the odd thoughtful or just plain odd look. Here I am now, online dating, entertain me. There is the interminable profile to fill with select distillations … Continue reading

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