Category Archives: self-acceptance

Week 169 – Chop wood, carry water

‘Before enlightenment; chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment; chop wood, carry water.‘ – Zen proverb The companions of the depression afflicting me the past few months has been household clutter and cleaning tasks I’ve put off because I could. Paperwork … Continue reading

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Week 168 – Unexpected donations

Spring is my favorite season. The days here in Seattle become noticeably longer, plants burst from buds into infinite shades of green, and the weather can change from hail to sunshine to rain in ten minutes. It also heralds a … Continue reading

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Week 165 – My one year transition anniversary

In some of my darkest pre-transition days, loneliness stalked me and often hurled barbs that burrowed and injected poison like bee stings when I tried to pull them out. It would whisper things like, ‘Nobody will want to be around … Continue reading

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Permission to transition

As I struggled with the decision to transition, I looked for someone, anyone, to give me permission to transition. I wanted my wife to give me permission. I wanted my doctor to give me permission. I wanted my counselor to … Continue reading

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A letter to Heather Coldstream, age 14

Dear Heather, Yesterday you had a life-changing insight and I know it scared the shit out of you. You are not losing your mind. Yes, you are a transsexual. In 2017 we mostly call ourselves transgender or trans for short. … Continue reading

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Quiet seas or smaller storms?

Being trans is boring. It’s 4:30 in the afternoon and raining here. I hear the tick of the clock on the wall, the trickle of water in the downspout outside the window, and the rain pattering on the roof. The … Continue reading

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Week 159 – Online dating

Rows of faces stare at me from the screen. Most are smiling, except for the odd thoughtful or just plain odd look. Here I am now, online dating, entertain me. There is the interminable profile to fill with select distillations … Continue reading

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