Category Archives: self-acceptance

Week 165 – My one year transition anniversary

In some of my darkest pre-transition days, loneliness stalked me and often hurled barbs that burrowed and injected poison like bee stings when I tried to pull them out. It would whisper things like, ‘Nobody will want to be around … Continue reading

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Permission to transition

As I struggled with the decision to transition, I looked for someone, anyone, to give me permission to transition. I wanted my wife to give me permission. I wanted my doctor to give me permission. I wanted my counselor to … Continue reading

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A letter to Heather Coldstream, age 14

Dear Heather, Yesterday you had a life-changing insight and I know it scared the shit out of you. You are not losing your mind. Yes, you are a transsexual. In 2017 we mostly call ourselves transgender or trans for short. … Continue reading

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Quiet seas or smaller storms?

Being trans is boring. It’s 4:30 in the afternoon and raining here. I hear the tick of the clock on the wall, the trickle of water in the downspout outside the window, and the rain pattering on the roof. The … Continue reading

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Week 159 – Online dating

Rows of faces stare at me from the screen. Most are smiling, except for the odd thoughtful or just plain odd look. Here I am now, online dating, entertain me. There is the interminable profile to fill with select distillations … Continue reading

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Week 157 – Three years of HRT

While three years of continuous HRT have just passed, setting a hormonaversary date isn’t so easy for me. My first hormone course was May 2011 through December 2011. It included two brief breaks; one was for a medical scare and … Continue reading

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Turning queer

I was queer in 7th grade when my class daydreams floated over to an 8th grade girl’s desk and I saved her from a fire and my unlimited imagination’s reward was a passionate embrace and kiss. I was queer the … Continue reading

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