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Week 159 – Online dating

Rows of faces stare at me from the screen. Most are smiling, except for the odd thoughtful or just plain odd look. Here I am now, online dating, entertain me. There is the interminable profile to fill with select distillations … Continue reading

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Week 153 – Five years later…

Five years ago, my ex-father-in-law sent me this letter: It pissed me off. I wrote a response, but never sent it. It was rambling and made me do a lot of work, so I sat on it. Flash forward to … Continue reading

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Happy Birthday, Few

Few took our kids to a Mariners game tonight along with her sister, Fesil, and friends to celebrate her birthday. I’m happy the kids are able to spend some time with their mother on her birthday. I’d asked her a … Continue reading

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Violation of trust

Incredulous working up to anger. I think that’s how I’m feeling now. One of my hard-earned life skills is not freaking out when the shit hits the fan. I learned that all freaking out does is track shit around when … Continue reading

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Two years of HRT and the poetry of love

On May 18, 2011, I took my first hormones (hormone replacement therapy or HRT). A few weeks in, I started to have panic attacks due to fears of transition and divorce. On December 21, 2011, I stopped taking HRT, mostly … Continue reading

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The DTs

Is it just the jitters If you vibrate out of your chair Waiting for a touch Or is it delirium tremens From love withdrawn

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Organic

That twisting, pulsing Hexagon chains me To all life’s combinations Which when tumbled Unlock the bond I share with you

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