Tag Archives: self-acceptance

The Work of Being Trans

Being trans is work, no matter where you are in your transition journey. Pre-transition, I spent vast amounts of energy attempting to compartmentalize away being trans and when that became impossible, juggling my inner and outer lives while going to … Continue reading

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The Empress’s New Clothes

I am a mirrored mosaic made of shiny and jagged edges, all narrow slivers of myself glued to my body after shattering who I used to be. I no longer reflect toward myself but away. Multitudes see what they see … Continue reading

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The Hungers of the Flesh

My flesh, greedy for touch, threatens to swallow itself in hunger. I imagine myself an ouroboros, ring-like and unbroken instead of the scattered drops of quicksilver I am, with only surface tension to hold my pieces together and being ever-fearful … Continue reading

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Blooming Anew

There is pain within the truth as it hurtles into me. It bears the hurt of ruthless honestly like a broadside blade smacking skin, stinging. It was witness to my labors and cannot lie. The water from the shower is … Continue reading

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April Fools’

1 April again. My second transition anniversary passed less eventfully than the first. I mowed the lawn with the push mower and cut down a dying spruce and dead rhododendron. The day before I cut down two dead fir trees, … Continue reading

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Hello, World! Part five.

There are times for patience and and deliberation and there are times for haste and action. In the five years(!) since my last installment, I shifted from decades of deliberation to the action of gender transition. In December 2011, I … Continue reading

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In the Mirror

I caught a glimpse of a beautiful, happy woman in the mirror today, and it was me. My hair was down from the ponytail I’d worn all day and it framed my face just so, my pajamas emphasized my still-blooming … Continue reading

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