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Grab Bag

CW: transphobia, surgery I’m five years post-social transition and two years post-surgery, and compared to how things were for me five or ten years ago my life is fairly boring on the gender front. This, it should be noted, is … Continue reading

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Week 4-7 Post-GCS

So, where am I at after almost eight weeks post-GCS? Sitting down still fucking hurts. Standing around for too long fucking hurts. Stubbing my toe when walking fucking hurts and sometimes just walking fucking hurts. Jogging or running is still … Continue reading

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Two Weeks of Hell

Content warning: graphic descriptions of surgical recovery, surgical care, biological processes, emotional distress There is a wide variance in post-surgical experiences depending on things like the surgeon, surgical technique, general health of the patient, complications, etc. The below is my … Continue reading

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Genital Confirmation Surgery (GCS) Part 2, March 2019

Content warning: graphic descriptions of surgical recovery, surgical care, biological processes, emotional distress, swearing There is a wide variance in post-surgical experiences depending on things like the surgeon, surgical technique, general health of the patient, complications, etc. The below is … Continue reading

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Genital Confirmation Surgery (GCS), March 2019

I meet with my surgeon the afternoon before surgery. My appointment has been re-scheduled twice; once because traffic is preventing me from arriving for an earlier appointment and then later because the doctor is running late. This is the second … Continue reading

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Do Cis People See Gender Counselors?

Do Cis People See Gender Counselors? A trans man friend of mine is planning to come out to his extended family as part of a brief holiday visit over Christmas and he’s getting a case of the nerves. He lives … Continue reading

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Waiting Room

My navigation app guides me north from San Jose to Burlingame on the 101. My appointment is at 3 pm and even though traffic is light, I’m concerned I might be late because I dawdled at my hotel. I speed … Continue reading

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My Friend, Loneliness

Loneliness is a new companion on my journey. When the still air suffocates me in silence I recall its foul cousin, isolation, the whispering sadist and apex of an invisible ménage à trios I felt when coupled but not whole, … Continue reading

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The Hungers of the Flesh

My flesh, greedy for touch, threatens to swallow itself in hunger. I imagine myself an ouroboros, ring-like and unbroken instead of the scattered drops of quicksilver I am, with only surface tension to hold my pieces together and being ever-fearful … Continue reading

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Blooming Anew

There is pain within the truth as it hurtles into me. It bears the hurt of ruthless honestly like a broadside blade smacking skin, stinging. It was witness to my labors and cannot lie. The water from the shower is … Continue reading

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