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Meditations on relationship regrets

I sorted through a box of old photos the other night. When I was done I had cried and laughed, dumped more than half, and I’ve been trying to shake the melancholy since. There were many pictures from my first … Continue reading

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Grab Bag

CW: transphobia, surgery I’m five years post-social transition and two years post-surgery, and compared to how things were for me five or ten years ago my life is fairly boring on the gender front. This, it should be noted, is … Continue reading

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Two Years Post-GCS

Content warning: graphic descriptions of vaginoplasty recovery, surgery, biological processes, emotional distress, and sex. There is a wide variance in post-surgical experiences depending on things like the surgeon, surgical technique, general health of the patient, complications, etc. The above are … Continue reading

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All the Feels

In the coming week, I’m having The Surgery and I have many intense feelings about it. Disbelief, fear, anticipation, relief, excitement, acceptance, and gratitude. Disbelief rides atop all. Am I really doing this? Is this really happening? Is this really … Continue reading

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Why I Switched Back to Oral Estrogen from Injection

[CW: graphic description of needle injections, statistical analysis] Almost two years to the day after I started injectable estrogen, I switched back to oral last week. One big win of injectable for me was the general aspect of my body … Continue reading

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Dating Culture Shock

Being trans and femme-attracted has made my dating pool severely smaller than it used to be and looking for love has been a cultural shock. It’s the experience of meeting for coffee on the first date and having the conversation … Continue reading

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Dear Dick,

Dear Dick, I’m sorry—I’m breaking up with you. The past few years have made it clear I just can’t be with you any more. It’s not fair to you for me to be thinking of Pussy when we’re together. I … Continue reading

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Hidden Chains

Oh! the futures I abandoned by staying chained to the past with a manacle of fear wrapped ‘round my throat. Thoughts of flight would bring a lump to my throat, tightening the collar I willfully wore. The links holding me … Continue reading

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Pussy Pondering Produces Penetrating Perception

She moves towards me, seeking my warmth and skin. My heat, a low simmer, moves closer to a full boil and it is almost too much. Almost. How has this beautiful woman come to be in my bed? It seems … Continue reading

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Broken

To be broken is to have been intact at some point, and I have no memory of being whole. I have memories of brief periods of time when I felt put together, but never have I not felt flawed. Maybe … Continue reading

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